So I am in a shitty spot. My husband is mentally and emotionally abusive. He constantly puts me down, I don’t even enjoy anything I used to... as well as making my pregnancy not as exciting . I am a FTM! And he has a daughter already with another woman. I was telling him how I was at 7 weeks, and how big the baby was and just facts I had learned on my app... and he stopped me and said “babe, this isn’t my first baby or pregnancy... I know what happens and I’m not gonna be as excited as you I am sorry but I’ve been through it” so immediately I wanted to cry but didn’t want him to even know he hurt me because it seemed as if he did it on purpose. Not to mention when I do tell him he has hurt me he tells me it’s not his fault I get upset over it. His words are just words and shouldn’t hurt me, that I am too sensitive . Since that day I am now 9 weeks, I am not as excited to share things with him and even my aunt and mom noticed I’m not as excited anymore. He just took my happiness for the baby and shattered it. He constantly makes me feel stupid, ghetto, bitchy, not good enough, and so much more. I don’t feel beautiful anymore unless we are in the bedroom, which isn’t healthy ! And his daughter hates me and she is only 2 ! I’m thinking about leaving him, but I’m scared. He is crazy... he has threatened me multiple times . Told me if I didn’t want him in the delivery room he would punch me. And told me his mother WILL be in the delivery room... or else. So many things he MAKES me do or else... and I’m so unhappy my mom wants me to stay away from him and get a restraining order because of how bad it is... but I also don’t want my baby growing up without his or her daddy! Is it safer for my self and the baby to stay away from him? I’m at a loss and so emotional and honestly he has really brain washed me and I don’t know what I even want in life anymore. Please any advice helps.