11 DPO and feeling completely hopeless

Mariah • 21 💞 Married to the love of my life ❣️ adopted son but trying to have one of our own. Me and my wife have been trying 10 months. Hoping this time around we get our rainbow baby 👶🏼

I’m 11 DPO (days past ovulation) and thought I had a faint line. But when I put it up to the sun I realised I just had eye lines. I’m pretty sure I’m out this cycle considering my CM (cervical mucus) is still white and creamy. Cramps under my right rib breasts have been sore since I O’D. Tired. And some weird sharp pains on both sides of my ovaries. Cervix is still pretty high soft and closed. My CM was watery and white for about 3 days and now back to creamy and white It dropped to about medium height for a day and shot back up It STILL hasnt lowered from the high soft closed position I’m pretty sure my CM (cervical mucus) is just normal CM. My heart hurts cause I wanted this so bad 😓 AF due in 7 days baby dust to everyone. TMI on picture since I am posting what my CM looked like after O for 3 days and then today.