You know when one bad thing happens, and then all of a sudden it's like the list keeps growing and growing? I wish it was as easy for me to just smile and all my worries would just disappear. I'm losing someone close to me to cancer. My husband and I have moved in to become her advocate and we watch as she steadily declines. Our bills keep piling on. The government is after us for a bill we technically shouldn't owe due to the Army messing up our discharge Travel pay.. but because it was escalated to the treasury we cant fight it. We lost our tax return to them.. Om top of that, we make too much money and are now losing state insurance (need it as I'm a diabetic) but cant cut our hours or we cant pay all our bills and care for his grandma. My husband has been in a shitty mood which is understandable and I cant seem to stop crying. Everytime I turn around, I'm crying and wishing things were different. Life doesnt have to be sad and I know this. I struggled with depression and anxiety. But this feels like so much worse. It feels like I'm trapped in some weird invisible circle of negativity. Where I feel like people are mad at me no matter what I do I'm not good enough. It doesnt feel like the normal depression I suffer from. I know I need to see someone, but working 5 days a week, with radiation appointments after and my two days off consist of full days of appointments, what am I to do?