Im freaking out, it’s just not the right time 😩

I don’t know what to do. I think I’m in denial

I am in a happy healthy relationship

We want a baby someday

We used birth control 😩

We are struggling to finish a US K1 fiance visa, and don’t know yet wether he will be able to come to the US.

It is all so expensive.

While we wait here outside the US we have no jobs and when we get back I have to get a job and support us both until the work permits are completed for him.

We have to stay in my dads house meanwhile.

Im afraid my dad would kick me out if he found out because he doesn’t like babies at all and would be so disappointed in me we are still too young for this

Everything is falling apart and this is such a difficult time to find out

I can’t tell anyone yet

My partners out with his dad car shopping

I need some advice I guess...

Our plan was:

1) Finish US visa

2) go to US in June and stay with my dad (free room so we can save our money)

3) get married June

4) I’ll start working as a medical assistant

5) all visa docs turned into residency docs, huge amount of money goes into that

6) September husband gets a job as a truck driver (this is when he can legally start work)

7) I start nursing school (online MA- LPN)

8) he finishes English language school and HS diploma from US (he is 24 but never finished for family reasons in his country)

9) maybe rent an apartment near our jobs and move out of dad’s house now we can both work and speak English

10) husband starts aeronautical engineering program

11) save money to buy house in Oregon while working and hanging out with friends and family

I don’t know where a baby fits in