I need to vent and get everything out. I don't want to hurt anyone or make people upset so don't read if you feel that it could ♡ Hi there... so I found out yesterday at my 12 week appointment when I thought that I was 12 weeks 3 days that my precious miracle had past away at 10 weeks 3 days. I'm absolutely devastated 😣 I had a scan at 8 weeks and everything was perfect. heart beat. size. everything. I went on to live my days in the states when I was visiting my soon to be husband. we were celebrating the pregnancy, enjoying every day together and then to come home and have this ultrasound to find out they past away kills me inside. I can't stop crying. I'm a complete and utter mess.... I've opted to get the d/c and have been waitin here for hours. each minute here feels terrible. I don't know but I just want this part of the tragedy to be over with. My soon to be husband and I decided to name our little baby Taylor since it's unisex and we never got to find out... We plan to get tattoos for our little sweet baby ♡ I can't believe this is happening to me. I don't believe that this is me. I didn't ever thing I would be 1 in 4. I thought that if I made it to 10 weeks that Taylor would be safe and I was wrong. I thought t wrong. now I have to deal with the fact that I posted on Facebook. I have this d/c the day before my 24th birthday. November 11th with always be a tough day along with the few days leading up to my birthday. I have never felt such pain before.... My midwife has been amazing though I don't think I would have been slowly getting through this without her compassion. I'll stop rambling I just figured I would write tjis all while waiting in the hospital :( I'm so

scared. I'm so hurt. I'm so lost. And now I am a childless mother.