Hello.

I’m not sure if i am posting this is the right place or not, so I’m sorry if it’s wrong.

I’m a 15 (nearly 16) year old girl and I’m currently in year 11 at high school (literally 10 days away from my GCSEs). Since year seven there has been a teacher that I can’t help be attracted to. At first it was innocent and I didn’t think anything of it, but it’s just out of control.

I remember the first time I saw him, I was sat in my English classroom and he walked in (he teaches maths) for some paper and our eyes met from across the table. Now though I can’t stop thinking about him, like it’s bad. I walk around School a certain way just so I can see him, or maybe even just hold a door open for him. I remember once I was in a storeroom with him (it was just the two of us) because he asked me to help him carry books and when he passed me them, our hands touched and honestly we both froze for like five seconds and then I walked off cause I was worried I would do something.

He’s married and he has a child, but I just don’t care. And I know that makes me a horrible person. He taught me for two years in a row, but he doesn’t teach me anymore. However, as mentioned before I will walk certain ways around School just to see him.

He’s always on my mind and it’s not just like dating or anything I think about, thoughts about us having sex are constantly in my head and even if I try and force them out, I can’t. I just can’t. I want to be with him. I feel like I love him, and I don’t want to let him go.

What do I do? Please be nice in the comments, it took a lot of courage to actually ask for this advice.

[Edit] Obviously I know it’ll never happen, I would never want to do anything that will hurt him or his career, but it’s so hard to fight these urges. I just need advice, please don’t be rude to me.