Very stressful

abigail
So I've been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years we moved in together after one month of dating although ive known him gor a year prior to dating I love him very much... we have a six month old daughter together and I also have 2 older daughters from a previous relationship.... Here's my problem that I hate so so much!!!! I have extreme trust issues and some what jealousy issues but mostly trust... I hate it so much and its ruining our relationship if I could trust him our relationship would be so much happier.... He has lied to me in the past about porn which made me trust him less and probably why I don't trust him at all.... cause he lied... I can't even leave the house with out getting anxiety about him texting a girl or anything to that nature... I hate that I have trust issue I'm sure a lot has to do with my ex he cheated on me with 7 girls... I found out all at once... I don't know how to trust anymore and it's killing me... I want to be happy and trusting to my love...