I guess I’m just venting bc I’m not sure if I’m crazy. I have PCOS so I know I have infertility issues... but my doctor ordered a sonogram to see if I have cyst in my uterus ... results says I have a lot of follicles in my ovaries and that she wants me on birth control ASAP bc I’m guessing I’m fertile (I’m on spiralatone... w/o birth control ). So now I’m about 9 days late on my period and my boobs are somewhat tender at times but my nipples are what are killing me... they hurt here in there but when they do hurt they stop me from what I’m doing at the moment. Idk 😐 I wasn’t trying to prevent pregnancy but there is a thought that I hope I am but then there’s a thought that not now not yet ... I guess I’m just scared to have a kid bc of what I’ve seen with my friends .

I’m scared to take a test and it come back negative and me just making up these symptoms just wishing I was pregnant ...

And I’m scared to get a positive and I am pregnant ... bc unexpected events have just happened recently that makes me what to stop trying to even have a kid and start preventing pregnancy...

I guess there’s never a good time...

I just venting... idk I feel kind of crazy having these thoughts ...