why?!?!?!

why does it always seem to be the womans fault...... no matter the subject I'm the one who is not trying hard enough, not being good enough, or I am dumb or stupid, why is there always name calling? why am I not good enough? why does it feel like I'm not skinny enough for him?and why does it seem every relationship is verbally abusive..... is there a good guy out there? will I ever find him?