Ok so my SO and I have only been together a little over a year but are already expecting our first in July. We are over joyed and excited and I already know he’s going to be an amazing father. There was never a “honeymoon” phase with us and that’s exactly how I like it. There were never walls to overcome or shyness to get around. We were instantly comfortable with each other and didn’t hide anything.

Tonight (Saturday) after work he’s moving in with me since his lease finally ended. Like I said we were instantly comfortable with each other and that’s how we liked it, and we’ve been so excited to live together finally! So why am I suddenly so god damn nervous about living with him!! I’m cleaning everything like crazy because for some reason I think “omg he’s going to think I’m gross and stop loving me if something is dirty!” Even though he’s here almost every day already and has helped me clean around the house 100 times before because he actually likes to clean. I’ve actually taken 13 bags of stuff to goodwill because I went through everything I own! This man and I have hidden nothing and I really do mean nothing, from bodily functions to weird habits. The only things that’s really changing is that instead of waking up together on the weekends it’s going to be everyday. So why am I suddenly terrified of living with him? My stomach is in knots and I can’t eat I’m so nervous! I dont know what the point of posting this was I guess I just needed to vent about it somewhere I wouldn’t be made fun of by friends or family.