Bisexual in Catholic Family...

Why couldn’t I just be like them. Every time I have to go to church for a wedding or a baptism or communion I always feel like I stick out like a sore thumb. Now my mom is on my ass about doing my first communion cause I’m 18+ years old and haven’t done it yet. I don’t know if I can do it. I’m bisexual it’s not a phase I can’t change it I don’t know what to do... why God. Why did you make me like this. I’m sorry that a woman currently holds my heart and it feels nothing but right with her. I’m so sorry I honestly feel like everyone would be better off if I was dead. No one in my family even acknowledges me anymore. Why am I even here....