Pee Kink

So this is something I’m scared to talk about or even to admit. My boyfriend is the only person who knows about it and I’m extremely ashamed of it. I just feel like I need to share it and see if I’m alone or not. Or make me feel better about it. Or just get it off my chest. Or give me tips.

I am turned on by the sight of a man urinating. I don’t know he just looks so manly and it just turns me on. But it gets worse. I’m turned on by urinating in places other than the toilet or watching others urinate elsewhere. Like in the shower, outside, in sinks, etc.

One of the biggest things I struggle with is moral; therefore, i only go in the shower or the toilet tho I so desperately want to do it elsewhere too.

I don’t know why I’m like this. I don’t know why watching others urinate in uncommon places or myself doing so turns me on.

Then additionally it tortures me not being able to satisfy my want by urinating elsewhere cuz I feel like it wouldn’t be kind to others.

I guess if anyone knows how I can get rid of this turn on or if you guys think that there’s nothing morally wrong with it. Just let me know.