0 embryos and feeling defeated.

IVF

have been such an emotional roller coaster. From getting approved for the loan to loosing embryos every other day. I found out two weeks ago that I had 2 embryos that survived and made it to blastocyst. I was so excited, but then my PGS test results came back today and they both are abnormal. 1 of them have 4 abnormalities so now I have nothing to transfer 😢. I have to wait until Friday to find out what’s next. How can the 2 embryos that fought through to day 5 have so many abnormalities? I’m so confused, frustrated, and hurt. As of now i have the money needed to try again for a 2nd cycle, but I don’t have enough money for the meds needed.

It hurts to know that I can risk my life by serving my country in the US Army but can’t receive insurance benefits to help assist with a child. I know it’s something my body should be able to do naturally, but for some reason everyone is not able and all I can do is 😭