I'm writing this post prematurely however I just needed to vent. I gave birth to our beautiful son on novemeber 3rd. he has changed our lives in so many ways. there are some easy nights and some very difficult days and nights. to start 3 years ago my now husband told he did not want to get married or have kids, we almost went our different ways because of this. but now we have our family. I had a complicated birth were the umbilical cord wrapped around my sons and we had an emergency csection, right after we signed paper stating if there was a csection there is one person allowed in the room. well that didn't happen, I was unable to see my son for his first 36hours of life, and my husband had to care for him and I naturally that is horrible for man lol, our son was a sga baby so he spent his whole time in the NICU. it was one of hardest things ever. after all that my husband mentioned he never wanted to go through with having another child. now 6 months after our son has developed and grown so fast and healthy thank god but of course just like any infant he has his days and moments where its harder than others dad o he cries A LOT!!! he is teething so many of you know how hard that is. now I'm not wanting a kid right away that would be detrimental for me right now because I just got accepted into pharmacy school yay me. but now he is saying this experience has made him not want to have another kid. he is going as far as telling people this will be his last and only with out even talking to me about about while I'm right in front of his face, which hurts. later on I know I want another I was raised as an only child and I don't want that for my son. but it just bothers me how he can make that decision with as much good that has come into our lives.