This might be extreme PMS kicking my ass, but I feel like I am back to worrying about everything under the sun. My anxiety is through the roof. I feel like for the last week my boss just keeps picking on my coworker and I and I almost feel like it's mostly directed at me. I feel unappreciated for the work I do and it's like he is trying to find reasons to tell me I am wrong. Not to mention the other "boss" just hired ANOTHER person (this the third for the year) and I feel very insecure about my job. I feel like she is out to talk my boss into replacing any and every employee that wasn't hand picked by her. It's making the working environment very toxic and it sucks because it's turning this place completely different to what it was when I was hired four years ago. Even my boss is different. I can't afford to leave (I wouldn't even know where to go) and I need my job because I have medical bills I am still trying to pay off and more coming since I've been seeing a specialist for our fertility issues. Not to mention that no income would also mean stop going to therapy which I also can't do without.

What sucks the most is that, I already have a low self-esteem but now we are adding feeling like I my boss thinks I am not good enough and now worrying my job is in jeopardy because I'm not part of the "boss" click.

I know I am not the only one who feels this way, but I don't want to loose my job. I can't. But I also can't take the mental anguish that it has become to walk in this office everyday just waiting for some other mistake to be thrown in my face. Couple that with the frustration and depression of being unable to conceive and with my health issues and it's like a perfect storm brewing inside and I don't even know how to address it. Which is why I am locked in the office bathroom crying my eyes out as I type this out. I want to to speak to my boss about it and my feelings but I am fairly certain that will do nothing to help my situation and may just give him more fuel to think I can't do it.