37 week checkup. Need help pls!

Hi all,

Need your help please. I went in for my 37 week checkup today. She’s a great doctor but the check hurt...A LOT and I actually screamed a bit. My whole body tensed up. This is our rainbow baby and we’ve taken every precaution possible including no sex since we found out so there’s been 0 activity down there (we are both okay with that). I just wanted to get some advice on how I can better handle week 38 and 39 checks. I’ll be induced between week 39/40 due to previous loss. If there are any tips you can share, I’d appreciate it. I am feeling like a failure/loser that I wasn’t able to handle this, making me question how I’ll handle labor. Please help. Thanks in advance!