I had my first child at 15. He is now 9 and I am now 25 and married. I got Mirena removed Jan 2nd 2018 after 9 years. I had 2 cycles and then found out March 26th I was pregnant from a home pregnancy test. On April 2nd It was confirmed at my doctors appontment. April 3rd I bled and cramped all day. I went to the ER that night. They diagnosed me with a threatened miscarriage. I ended up miscarrying at about 5 weeks. There was a gestational sac around 2mm or 2cm I can't remember but no fetal pole. I continued to bleed and went back in April 6th to my doctor and my HCG was back to 0. I stopped bleeding April 7th. I got a BFP May 1st. No AF in between. According to this app using April 3rd as my LMP and my doctor using April 1st as my LMP I am about 5 weeks and a few days. I am just emotional. I don't really know what to do. I have alot of support but I still feel very loney and confused. I am so happy to have conceived again but so terrified it will happen again. Also my husband and I were so happy the first time around. This time its just like a depressing waiting game. The first time he kissed my belly and we talked excitedly about it we told our parents were also excited. This time it's like a huge secret. We aren't talking about it. we aren't telling anyone. I know he's excited and he has said that but I can tell he is worried The first pregnancy I think I knew something was wrong. I said several times before my appontment what if there is no baby. I didn't have any symptoms really. I do now though. My boobs are so sore, I'm very tired. No morning sickness yet I secretly hope for it to come so I know everything is "normal" even though my husband doesn't think I will get it because I didn't have it with my first. Anyway does anyone else feel this way ? Any advice? Or even just someone to talk to.