Is this pregnancy going to be a constant battle 😞

Sorry for the moan but have to get my feelings out somewhere. Just feel like im never going to enjoy this pregnancy i lost my boy at 34 weeks currently 9 weeks with my rainbow baby and i just feel like everyday is a worry each twinge i get im paranoid i thought after my scan yesterday id be at ease but nope im still constantly on edge worrying if my baby is ok 😭