2 days before c section

You know, I thought being prepared would help. I thought having everything bought, organized, and cleaned and washed and prepped would stop this. I thought somehow I would feel better. Feel ready.

But I’m sitting here in the nursery, rocking. I am looking at all I have to offer my new baby, having a massive anxiety attack.

I’m less certain than ever I can do this, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it.