Hi all,

I got my nexplanon removed on March 28th and surprisingly we became pregnant 2 days later. I got my BFP on April 20th and we were so excited! I had several days where I would have a sharp pain in my right hip area that radiated down my leg. When nothing relieved my pain I went to the ER. I had my husband stay with my 2 girls while I went to the ER, my girls are from a previous marriage this baby would have been my husbands first. At the ER I received the devastating news that my baby was in my right tube. The doctor said the ultrasound looked as if I was getting ready to miscarry and sent me home with a recheck of my HCG levels in 2 days. I was devastated. I’m an RN so I felt stupid for going to the ER because I thought it would just be had or growing pains not an actual baby in my tube! 2 days later my HCG dropped from 64 to 43 and my ultrasound on Thursday showed a clear right Fallopian tube but tissue in my uterus. My OB said I’m definitely miscarrying. I left the appointment in good spirits since I didn’t need surgery! Later that night I started to bleed and pass tissue. My HCG a week later was 33... next weeks HCG will determine if I need meds/D&C; to remove the tissue. I’ve been crying on and off and missing what could have been. My husband acts like nothing happened he said he was just staying strong for me but it just appears that he doesn’t care. I’ve been crying this afternoon and he keeps asking what’s wrong and I’ll tell him that I miss the baby/the cramping is painful and he doesn’t get it. 30 minuets later with a beat red face and wet eyes he still asks me what’s wrong... I snapped again. Do you think he asked me again what was wrong? YES he did! This time I said nothing and he hasn’t asked me again since. I feel like I’m the only one who lost a baby and I feel all alone. My best friend doesn’t like talking about it because she will start trying in June and she doesn’t want the negativity and everyone else says I shouldn’t be so emotional it was “just an egg”. I didn’t expect it to hurt this much. I feel like if I had my husband or a support person through this it wouldn’t be as bad... I love my husband but right now he sucks.