Patience is a virtue ❤️ we are not alone**update

Let me just start by saying what most of us are thinking..... trying to conceive SUCKS!

Every month you track your ovulation, your CM, your bbt, you have 5 different apps telling you when you ovulate (2 of them usually being different), peeing on LH strip 2 sometimes 3 times a day. Hoping that your test line is as dark as the midnight sky. And when it is you jump almost forgetting about anything aside from making that damn baby. Doing what ever it takes to make sure that sperm gets to the egg. Preseed, soft cups, the stork, putting your legs up, and praying. Praying so hard you can feel it in every ounce of your body.

Then we reach the dreaded TWW. Where we start to obsess on every little sign. Boobs hurt, cramping, exhausted, starving, nausea, and is it implantation bleeding? Start testing a week before your missed period just hoping maybe there will be a faint line on that hpt. Staring for hours and taking pictures of it. Eventually throwing it away just to dig it back out in hopes of a damn line when you know it’s invalid after the time frame. But you don’t care because a line is a line and you crave for that line!

Watching everyone else around you having children some even not deserving. And here you are quietly suffering month after month when that dreaded witch AF shows up to remind you that you’re “failing” again. Wondering when it’s going to be your time.

I get it because for 4 years I was that person. Every month. Crying on the bathroom floor because I wanted this so bad. Having lost previous pregnancy’s as the test lines never got darker. But I’m here to tell you. When the time is right it will happen. If that means giving birth or adopting. It will happen! Don’t give up, but give yourself grace. Good things come to those who wait. The best gift is yet to come. Here we are 4 years of trying and these lines are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. Keeping all of you in my thoughts and wishing baby dust to you all

******* Thank you to everyone for their positive comments. I tried to keep up with commenting back in the beginning but there are so many now it would take for ever!! Just know I’m reading them all and I wish you ALL positive thoughts and baby dust.. a common question I’m getting is why so many tests... to that I say, why not? I paid good money for those things! I probably bought enough I should have stock in the company!

UPDATE::: went to the ER tonight as I started bleeding and suffering from severe dehydration. Got iv fluids and found out I had a cyst rupture but baby is great! 134 bpm measuring perfect❤️

We ordered the SneakPeak today it should be here tomorrow and results in 48 hours!!

**update**

Oliver Ryan was born 01/14/2019

@ 10:41am 6lbs 13oz