2ww wait

omg this dreaded 2ww is killing me,for the last week n half ive had twingeing in my lower abdomen,been very fatigued,plus ive got lots milky white CM,plus my BBT has been elevated,plus been very bloated,AF due 19-5 i do but i dont wanna test as i dont wanna be let down with a BFN,anyone else feel the same way