It still doesn’t feel real. We’ve had our baby shower. We’re hanging up clothes. I just felt him move a few minutes ago. But I just don’t feel like there’s an actual baby in me that will be here in a few weeks.

This might be upsetting to some people but I keep thinking “Huh, I wonder what we’re going to do with all of this baby stuff when I have a stillbirth.” Like, it’s still just incomprehensible to me that I’m going to have a baby. My other two losses were before 8 weeks so I’ve never been this far into a pregnancy.