So my period is due either today or tomorrow. I tested early (even tho I told myself I wouldnt)

I can't even get excited as the last two times ended up in chemicals or early miscarriages. Call it what you like. However, the other day I saw my first double rainbow, so could this be a sign???

I am terrified of going to the bathroom in case I see pink!! I can't go thru a third...

If I do, I just may stop trying and focus on my almost 2 yr old.

Thank you for listening...baby dust to you all!!

UPDATE: temp dropped this morning and I started bleeding...another chemical 😔