my rainbow baby

Samantha

It was my first pregnancy and she was a beautiful little girl, Emma was her name. I lost her at 8 months. she was born June 16th. I dont even know how I'm going to deal with that date coming up... Well a week ago I started feeling moody and bloated and figured it was my period coming up. the date it was supposed to start came and passed so I took a test. I'M PREGNANT! :-D I dont know how I feel finding out so close to the date I lost my first. my head is spinning. i can't sleep regularly, my brain just wont stop. because I lost her so late in the pregnancy there isn't really a date when I can sigh with relief, feel a little more at ease knowing I made it further than last time. I dont know... I'm so happy, scared, depressed and at the same over the moon with joy. This is my first post here it just feels good to get some of this off my chest. thank you all for listening, or reading as it were.