I stopped trying to talk about things because every time he says one thing, we argue about it the next day because he doesn’t ever mean what he says. I’m just trying to avoid another fight because he knows how head strong I am and how I hate for someone to feel like they’re in control of me. Idk if he feels threatened because I don’t let him tell me what to do. Like going out with his sisters and cousins who are my ONLY friends in this town because I moved away from my family and friends to be with him. He’s continuously called me a hoe for wanting to enjoy being 21 without any kids. I just turned 21 less than a month ago. And he’s trying to keep me from going out again to celebrate his cousins 21st birthday next weekend. But I’m so tired of having the same argument all the time that I just said we didn’t have to talk about it and he gets mad.

Back story;

In our first place we had, I admit I was controlling. It I was also depressed and angry. I didn’t want to see anyone because everyone was telling me what I can and can’t do. And I don’t want anyone to think that . Like I said I was in the wrong. I know that now. But I’ve owned up to it since and I’ve stopped doing it only for him to feel like he has to get revenge and do it to me. It’s been like this for a few months now and we fight every other day about the same shit. And it just makes me so mad because he does this on purpose and he does it because he knows I won’t leave him. He’s called me a slut, threaten to go cheat on me if I go out. And all of his family explained to him that when we went out for drinks that I turned down every man to approach me and even tho I was drunk, I made it very obvious that I was taken and had a man waiting for me at home. And one guy even asked me to lie to him and say I was going home with my friends but I said no. And I wouldn’t do that to my man. ALL WHILE I WAS INTOXICATED. But he says he don’t trust me and holds my past against me. (I slept with 3 different guys in one week when me and my boyfriend weren’t together and I was having an “episode”)

This is just so stressful.