I have been fairly sexually active but I have never enjoyed sex. Honestly maybe it because I am jut going through the motions. I’m just doing what my boyfriend wants me to do. I don’t get the desire to have sex and I’m so confused because everyone around me enjoys sex and finds it very pleasing and I feel like the odd duckling.

My first sexual encounter with another person was with a boyfriend who would touch me only when he thought I was asleep. I never said anything, I never stopped him and I feel so stupid for not telling him to stop.

I don’t feel like relationships are for me because I just feel like a sex toy. I just go through the motions. And don’t enjoy it.