Am I fat?

Currently having such a hard time with my self esteem and body image. It's summer so everyone is in crop tops and shorts. I don't feel comfortable in anything except leggings and sweatshirts.

Do I need to lose some weight? My thighs are what really disgust me... I played sports forever and when I stopped, they lost so much muscle tone.

Be honest, I need to hear it👌🏻