Hi I'm 19 years old, well 4 years ago I was raped by one of my friends. Well on August 18, 2014 I was going to hangout with my friend Dylan we were going to watch a movie at his house well after we got to his house and he started the movie he started touching me I kept telling him no but he kept going I tried pushing him off of me but he just held me down well after he was finished I put my clothes on and started walking home which was 30 minutes away. I was so emotional that I went straight to my best friends house and told her everything she made me tell her mom and then her mom drove me home and me and my best friend went inside my house and told my dad together my dad got so mad to the point where he grabbed a gun and ran outside well I just stood there crying while my step mom went after him and my aunt called the cops. Well a few weeks later the cops came back and said that there was no evidence and that I consented to have sex with him which wasn't the case. For days I was so scared to leave the house because I was afraid of seeing him. Well one day I went to the store with my dad and saw my friend that had the same name as the guy that raped me so I looked at my dad and said I'm gonna say hi to Dylan and my dad looked at me and said the one that supposedly raped you I was so hurt by my dads comment that I just stayed in the car while he went into the store and cried my eyes out. I still get tormented by my family about it and it hurts. Well last month I found out that the guy who raped me died in September of last year. I haven't talked to anyone about this since it happened cause I just wanted it to go away. But it never did and I got really depressed to the point where I started to self harm and I had to go to the hospital but I haven't done that in years. I just needed to get my story out there