Jealousy and guilt

With every friend i have that becomes pregnant i feel like a piece of my hope dies. I am jealous of what they have. I feel guilty for being angry at them for having it come so easy. I have been trying for 3 years. I have done fertility cycle after fertility cycle. I have had 2 miscarriages. My emotional wounds have not healed and are reopened on a regular basis. I keep a happy and normal face, i am tortured inside. I have just started my second fertility cycle since my 2nd miscarriage in December. May my wounds begin to heal and may i not live in tortured silence anymore.