🙁 what now

Just feel like giving up, TTC 1yr now, 2 chemical Preg & its taking over my life 24/7. People say dont think about actually getting pregnant etc but so hard when you believe its Karma for two abortions years back (plz dont judge, it was hardest choice of my life & i had to travel to another country on my own with not 1 bit of support. 😣 but if this is my karma i deserve every bit of it that i wont b a mummy x