I’m a fairly emotional person in everyday life. I’m sensitive from a previous abusive relationship that has changed me. I like drinking, I rarely go out with girl friends and get drunk. But Everytime I go or I get drunk, my boyfriend throws a fit and has so much attitude. I said “I’m going out to PAINT NIGHT with some friends tonight. And he rolled his eyes and said “oh that’ll be fun for me when you get home”. And it makes me stressed out and on edge and actually makes me More emotional because I’m afraid of doing something wrong. He says that whatever emotion I’m feeling, its overreacted. I also get really horny when I drink.

So the Only problem about me, is that if something bothers me when I’m drunk or if he’s ignoring me and I bring it up, I let it be known. Where being sober I would just accept it. Again, I don’t get drunk a lot but I do drink a lot. I was telling him that there’s a lot worse drunks out there (not judging but my best friend has slept with a married man, gets in fights all the time, does hard drugs, and is always mean when she’s drunk). I’m never mean, it’s either happy or irritated, and I never do anything crazy.

I try not to get to the point of making him annoyed anyway, but he gets annoyed at everything! And he is 0% emotional/affectionate person. So what do I do?! I don’t want to stop going out every once in awhile (this will be the first one in a month and a half) but it always causes him to get pissy. And I only ever get mad/irritated when I’m drunk is when he ignores me for video games or he shuts me down. And he never wants to go out with me (which I don’t mind). But he says that I’m not fun when I’m drunk because something will bother me and I’ll show it (I never show it sober) and he doesn’t like that.

How can I stop being emotional? Because now I don’t even want to go anymore because I’m stressed that I’ll show too much emotion when I drink.