But I feel like I will be judged because of the way I have lived my life so far. My hubby and I are expecting our first child in September and love the teachings of the church. But we live in a vary small community of everyone knows everyone and everything and I feel like I would be judged like I don't belong. I also am having a hard time with the fact that I don't know if I personally believe in "god" it is a hard concept for me to swallow but out of all the religions I know lds is the one that makes the most since. I'm nurvice to seek with missionaries because off my tattoos and life style. What would you lady's advice to maybe get me feet wet a little with out pushing the comfort zone too much at this emotional time in my life. Thanks.