so starting Monday (because I wanna drink this weekend), I'm going to be running everyday in the mornings. I am so tired of being and feeling fat. My mom calls me huge and saying I need to wear 20 W in jeans (not true). asking if I'm always pregnant and just won't stop talking about my weight. I hate shopping because I can't find anything that I feel good in and I don't want to buy something I feel ugly in. I have about 50-55 pounds to lose to be at my ideal weight for my height. I'm not giving up this time, no more excuses. and I've also been talking to mine and my hubby's friend whose a recruiter and good friends with the hubby. We've been talking since last Friday and I really think it's something i want to do. I'm scared , nervous and excited about making this big decision. I've already had some family members tell me I can't do it and they can't see me doing this.  I feel like I need to spread my wings a little more and get this experience in my life. My hubby is very supportive and my daughter (6) I haven't talked to about this but will when I make a decision.