Someone please help me get my life together 😩

WARNING! This post is detailed and kinda lengthy, sorry I’m just trying to make sure yal understand 😂

To start off, i am very into zodiac signs so i will refer to astrology a lot. Once upon a time me and this Taurus ( i am a Virgo ) we’re talking very heavily and was about to be in a serious relationship. I mean i was shocked that he even liked me and wanted me as much as he did. This guy was just 😩😍 he had his shit together ( and still does ) as far as money, a job, a place, car the whole 9 yards... he’s from New York 😩 very built and muscular, he’s a sweetheart and he really cares about me and my feelings all the time. The sex is a whole different story.. i have never met someone who snatched my soul everytime we fuck 🤤😂 like even when we are around each other we can’t keep our hands off of each other and i get this... electrifying pulse or sensation throughout my body everytime he touches me and it feels like he’s meant for me... but somehow we just ended up falling off and not really talking to each other. Not on a bad note or anything just simply stopped talking. Couple years later after a bad heartbreak with an Aquarius 🙄🖕🏾 i met a Sagittarius who I’ve now been with for 6 years ❤️ and I’ve haven’t been this happy in a very long time... until recently 🙁. Let me just say from my past interactions with friends and family members, Sagittarius are FULL BLOWN ASSHOLES 🤷🏾‍♀️ it’s like one minute he cares and shows all this love to me and the next min he don’t wanna be bothered by me... when i first met him, he was very very quiet and kept to himself all the time. He was literally someone who just stayed in his room playing video games all day long. When i first saw him i really thought there was something different about him and he was super cute ☺️😍 tall, chocolate , athletic body and he was just someone who swept me off my feet everytime he spoke to me.. like why can’t you just talk to everybody like this lol. But we really hit it off.. in fact we went out only after 4 days of talking to each other 🤦🏾‍♀️ but i didn’t care.. i fell in love with him and when we have sex it’s just outrageously amazing every single time 😩 it’s like he was giving me more than what the Taurus gave me and at that point i was like “okay, I’m going to marry a Sagittarius” but now we are just constantly fighting and we kinda broke up 🙁 (only reason y i said kinda is because he still comes over) and i realizes that all of this time Sagittarius and Virgo are NOT compatible. We are good with communication and very high on sex but the compatibility is not there which makes me wonder how we were together for all of these years 🤔. Anywho, now I’m single a couple of days ago out of the blue, the Taurus reached out and asked me if i wanted to chill so i said sure why not i haven’t seen him in years.... when i tell yal it took me SOOOOOOOOO FUCKING MUCH not to do anything to this man 😩 he looked waayyy better than before! Like he really glowed up from our teenage years 🤤 and when i went up to his door and he opened it... it was like a movie scene where the 2 people would start dramatically kissing and stumbling all over the place (all while still making out) just to get to the bed 😂😂😂 we missed each other sooo much and nothing was said... no i did not have sex with him but i was THIS close to just giving in. We talked for hours i didn’t leave until like 2am. We was just catching up on life and was watching the game until i left. Me and the Taurus have been taking everyday since and he still wants me after all of these years of not talking... relationship wise. But the Sagittarius can’t leave me alone either.. i just need some advise because the Sagittarius really takes care of me.. like he really does go above and beyond for me to make sure I’m good money wise, food, health.. he’s just bad at showing emotion. Like really bad. I have to be the one who starts up the convos or sex or anything. But the thing is he’s only had me.. i took his virginity and everything so that’s y he’s soo attached to me. I want him to be able to go out and enjoy life as a man cuz he says he wants to marry me and i do too. I really want this Sagittarius to be the father of my kids and i want to be his wife in the future... but at the same time the Taurus is willing to do the same thing for me 😩 idk what to do.