I do love my husband. I just got laid off due to shortage of work. He hasn't worked since December and keeps waiting on the army.

We're newlyweds (only married since February) but I'm scared in a lot of ways; during our ceremony, I felt numb. Sometimes I am happy to be married. Most of the time nothing feels any different.

I have tried to make things better, but I am losing enjoyment out of everything. I've tried talking to him and am applying for jobs. He is not trying because of said army thing. Nothing interests me.

His love for me grows (according to him) but I continue to feel numb everywhere. Every day is just passing.

I'm sad because I've always loved being productive. I can only hope that this feeling is due to stress...