CD 42 still no AF or BFP!

Janet
Just need to vent my frustrations.. I'm sure many of us have them. I'm on CD 42 right and no sign of AF, just took a pregnancy test and it was negative. The last time my cycle was more than 40 days was December and since then I've been between 28-29 (last month 33) so I'm getting so frustrated because I just want to know what it is!! If I'm pregnant I'll be over the moon because we've been trying for so long, I had an ultrasound down there, HSG (which was so painful) numerous bloodwork and I'm just so tired of it all, If im not pregnant I just want AF to come so I can start prepping for next month! My cervix is high and closed and usually around AF it's low and obviously a little open so I just don't know 😖😖😖