How to choose 😩

Ma

I’m 3 1/2 months pregnant with my second baby and I had a super traumatic vaginal birth with my first where I hemorrhaged and almost bleed to death I also tore to the point where I’m now having urinary and bowl problems I spoke to my high-risk obgyn this week and she said that it might be best if I get a c-section because of everything that happened last time plus if I deliver vaginally again I will definitely need reconstructive surgery on my vagina which scared me but she said that I need to way both of my opinions because of it being a Major surgery I feel trapped and uncomfortable doing either way but this baby has to come out some how 😣 I’m also worried because I will have a toddler to take care of as well any advice is appreciated 💜