I have no one to talk to about this, not family or friends... but I've been on here and this community seems to be understanding and gives good advice.

Ever since I could remember my mom likes to make rude remarks about me, my weight, my lack of social relationships (not having friends), being a loner, says I like anything I can get. She'll be nice one minute and then the next she's talking bad about me and makes issue with my dad so they can gang up on me. My parents are abusive, physically and emotionally... I've dealt with it for 19, almost 20, years of my life and it's pushing me to the brink of my breaking point. I know, I could just move out but I won't be able to for multiple reasons that involves paying for school and paying them back money.

Anyway, she went off on me today. It's her birthday weekend and everyone has been having a good time and then she just been... rude to me for no reason. I told her she couldn't wear my wig because I bought it and she wants it (I haven't worn it yet but plan on doing so). She was in the bathroom with my aunt, calling me all types of names and saying that I am a loner because I do it to myself, that I don't have friends but I socialize with nobody but "white people around the world" and that they're majority of guys who I don't know anything about (which isn't true)... I spend most of my time on here. She tries to go about it as if she didn't say or do anything wrong, and says I need to get over it.... but how? I don't... I feel like crying but I can't. I did nothing wrong to her, ever.

I need advice... the more I go through this, the more I start to think she has something against me.