ive been attmited into 3 hospitals this year. i now have a county worker under court. ive had issues for a very long time and just now im tsken seriously by my own mom. but still, i know she doesnt care. not allowed to have a phone and that is the one thing that made me happy. fuck my county worker. honestly all in all, im done at this point. hoping to move to CO witb my dad and ill be off court papers and maybe my life will be better. i havent even been home for a month but it seems longer. almost a month clean from self harm! i am so proud and it feels amazing.