A part of me gives up

Mya

So as you all can see, I am coming up on BD time. I just asked my husband if he was wanting to try this month. I would love to, but the last cycle, we both gave our all. Especially me. He doesn't quit understand how much I have put into this emotionally, and it honestly almost broke me the last time. I'm just not really sure if I want to try and come to another negative.