It dawned on me today that the only one in my home that cares or loves me and wants to spend time with me is my 5 year old son. My step kids fight me all day long lie to me disrespect me and my home. My husband spends all day with his game's get's an attitude when i call his name to talk to him. Long conversations dont happen all we discuss is his misbehaved kid's. He spend's all day talking to his online friends. If i see he has a pause in his talking i try to talk to him and he continues to talk over me to his friend's. last night was no better as well i showed him something on my phone that i thought was funny he died in his game gave me the are you kidding me look. I cant get him to get up and help me with his kid's so i have to deal with it all my self i get super stressed and sleep to deal with the extream stress. Guess what the kids will scream just to wake me up. When he gets home from work i full engage in talking with him hi how are you how was you day and i am in a full blown conversation and paying attention to him and what he has to say. But i cant get the same. Im so over trying to be a mom and a wife i hate this life. Now i am wondering if i am of any vaule to anyone in my home. it sure does not feel like it. it feels as if im here to babysit my step kid's. it feels as if im here for his convenience. i tried to talk to him about how i feel like it is wrong that i as his wife recieve handme downs while his kids get new things my son gets handme downs as well. he rarely gets new things. his daughter goes to the salon and gets her hair done. In 7 years i have been one time and am told i get taken all the time. i ask him to help me cut my hair he wont do it so i just have to hack it off into a bob. i am so so so upset. i pick his back to remove pimples and i cant even get a freaking massage. sometimes the pain gets so bad i cry myself to sleep. btw his kids hit me and his son has tried to put my son in an oven and just today he kicked my baby boy. tried to trip him as he went past. i found out my step kids have been throwing away dishes to avoid washing them. im missing all the kids cups and alot if not all of my tupa ware. i dont know what to do.