Someone please please PLEASE help me. This is a long story and I need help.

So I am 14 years old and I found out I liked my 13 year old friend. So back in December of 2017 we went out secretly and got found out February 6th 2018. His mother told mine that I had a crush on him and we went out. I broke the news to him that we couldn't be together and he left for an hour and started acting strange. I asked him and he said he cut himself. So I being the dumbass I am I still told him I loved him whatcha is true cause I can't live without him.

Every Time I talk about some other guy he gets jealous and cuts. I can't stand it and I don't think a 14 year old should be going through this much

So I went crying to my friend one time and she told me that he's mentally abusing me. It cleared everything up and I still love him.

I continued to love on him but if I make one wrong move he'll cut.

One time he made me so angry I had cut my thigh.

I can't let go every one is telling me to let go of him and I'm too good for him. But I can't I love him dearly.

This was us together at my birthday party.

I'm just really confused on what to do.

Please help me.

Thanks for your time

Edit: I'm severely hurt but still trying to get away. I think I'm developing depression I have too many of the signs. Please I need all the help I can get