This guy (who was like 5 years older and from another country, I knew him for ages though)a year and a bit ago forced himself on me 10 days after my 16th birthday. I had a boyfriend at the time and I couldn't tell him or my friends the truth so they thought I cheated. I lost all my friends and boyfriend. A month later I went back to him as I had nobody and was going crazy and he did it again. He stole my virginity. I think about it every day and I'm not sure I'll ever get over it. Any advice on how to help?

I blame myself everyday as it was partly my fault I guess?