I am huge.....😞

I thought I was doing pretty good. Now I am just extremely disappointed in myself all over again. I was 303 lbs about a month or 2 ago. I had lost 24 pounds in 2 weeks according to my doctors office. Now a few weeks late I am back up to 285.... still 18 pounds lighter than my heaviest, but still.... 285?! That’s at least 50 pounds heavier than my 24 year old husband and I am only 21. I absolutely hate myself....