Bad mom

After my miscarriage yesterday I woke up covered in blood this morning which sunk me down into another cycle of crying and anger. Which of course made me procrastinate getting the baby out of bed. He was happily talking and playing so I went to get my coffee first... does anyone else feel like when they are going through this just feel like they are a bad mom? I don’t want to play I don’t want to clean I just want to be sad cry and sleep...

my SO went back to work out of state he was at the airport when it happened he asked if I wanted him to come home I told him I understand he has a job that is what pays our bills. I’m not going to tell him to go or stay. Now I just want him here helping me I don’t want to do anything but now I have a massive amount of cleaning to do