So I already have a beautiful sassy little girl at home and I’m hoping and praying we have our boy now.

For some reason I feel like this one will be another little girl though, and it’s not that I will be disappointed or not love her because I know I will, I just desperately WANT a little boy and this is our last kid we’re having.

How do I push these feelings of not wanting another girl away?

I feel horrible that I might be slightly disappointed if they tell me it’s a girl because that’s not right, there are people struggling to get pregnant, and I should be over joyed with any gender. I feel so guilty and mad at myself for feeling this way :(

Going next week to see what we’re having....