Me and my boyfriend of five years just started to have sex a year ago he was my first but I got pregnant and lost the baby he tell me everything going to be okay that it just wasn't gods plan for us I was two and a half months pregnant before I lost it so I gained some weight and stopped modeling but yesterday  for the first time in months we were about to have sex but he stripped me down and I just pulled my legs to my chest and started to cry  he asked why and I said it was because of my body and all he say your body is still as beautiful as it was when we first met  but can't seem to view myself as beautiful even though I lost all my weight I gained from the pregnancy just don't know if I'm still stuck on losing my baby or Im just confused on this the whole section?