Back in January I got diagnosed with Herpes simplex virus 1 and I was absolutely devastated and disgusted and still am. I caught it from my boyfriend of 3 years as he performed oral sex and must of had some sort of cold sore. I’ve only ever slept with 2 people and I’m only 22 and I can’t help but kind of hate him a little. Hate is a strong word but I can’t think of another word. I feel like it’s just ruined my life sort of. I’m always thinking about if we ever split up, I don’t think I’ll be able to ever have sex with anyone else ever again. Its also put me off sex as I’m scared of him catching it down below as well and it’s just kind of made me even more self conscious than I already was. I’m still absolutely devastated and I don’t know how to get over it☹️😩