Please read.

We’ve been together for 5 years and have a 10 month old son. Before we started dating he told me he had depression. I was fine with it and our relationship was fine and dandy up until we had our son. My boyfriend has an extremely short temper. Like, if he sees a crumb on the floor (literally) he tells me I’m a slob, a dirty b**** and that I don’t clean up. That isn’t true, I do clean up, a lot, actually. Our son just gets into everything. My clean isn’t his standard of cleaning (so he says) even though the end result looks the same. He goes from 0-100 all the time and literally screams at the top of his lungs. He’s 24 so this behaviour is very unacceptable, especially in front of a baby. He literally smokes weed and plays games all day while I watch our son. I don’t mind this for the most part,

but it’s kinda hypocritical when he says I don’t do anything all day. I buy everything for him as well and he contributes only when he feels “nice”. If he’s having a bad day you better watch out. He is in college but is off for the summer. He works two days a week 3 hours a week. Then he spends all of his money on video games and weed. Just when I think I’ve had enough and I’m literally a Paper Marios’ width to leaving, he gives me such a good apology I feel fooled. Everytime we get into these arguments he tells me he has depression and he can’t help it, but yet says he doesn’t need help and says it hurts his feelings that I tell him he does. Then he says things like “I was so scared you were gonna leave” “I love you both with all of my heart” “please don’t ever leave me, I don’t know what I’d do”, etc.

We get along SO well when he isn’t grumpy, and that’s probably the reason I stick around. I’m so confused and I really don’t know what to do. I want to leave, but part of me wants to stay because my son really loves his dad. At the same time I know the yelling isn’t good for him. Ugh.😞